“Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me. “(Psalm 51:10 ESV)
This week God has shown me that I have a heart problem. In areas that I thought I defeated, the resentment still remained. Although I have given up many areas of my life and let go of many desires, He has shown me how I have not let them go willingly. Instead, I still cling to ways and thoughts of my will and not His will.
Everywhere I turned, from sermons I heard, to when someone spoke to me about their personal struggle, they all centered on heart problems. So as I write this, I come before The Lord brokenhearted, with clogged arteries and heart palpitations. My arteries are clogged with the desires and expectations of the world as I desire to be recognized as successful in the eyes of the world and on some level to achieve fame and fortune. But God measures success differently. My heart palpitates, skips a beat and sometimes beats double time, with the thought of more financially and the ability to go and do what I want, when I want. The center of my heart problems…the palpitations and clogs…are two words: “I want”. Neither of these is good for a whole, healthy, and clean heart as they are self-centered and not God-centered.
When David spoke the words of Psalm 51 to the Lord, it was with the recognition of just how much his heart had turned from being centered on God to being self-centered. He had committed adultery with Bathsheba and sent her husband, his soldier, Uriah to be killed on the front lines of battle. With sins like that, how could David have the audacity to ask God to create in him a clean heart? Simple, he knew his God and he that knew God could and would do it. Whenever we have a heart issue, it goes deeper than the surface causes we think. David’s want of Bathsheba went much deeper than simple sex. His desire and lust spoke of a discontent with what he had and was already given as King. The moment manifested in an unguarded and innocent instance as he beheld his kingdom from the palace rooftop. Trouble began when he saw something in his kingdom that did not belong to him and he focused more on his wants versus God’s desires for him. So it has been with my own heart problems. The palpitations are symptoms of a deeper problem with my heart and I know of only One who can fix it.
Where do you have a heart problem like David, like me? Do you need to ask God to create in you a clean heart and to renew a faithful and right spirit? You must be diligent with the care of your heart. Without daily and proper attendance to your heart, without feeding it proper and nutritious meals, it can become clogged with improper wants and desires. But when you feed your heart the Bread of Life known as Jesus Christ and feast on the Living Water of God’s word daily, you will be filled with the Spirit and not clogged with the world.
This week, I implore you to take stock of the condition of your heart. Ask God to show you the condition of your heart and if the Holy Spirit reveals anything that is not of God in your heart, ask The Lord just as David did to create in you a clean and renewed heart.