Broken, But Not Beyond Repair
“So they will say, “This land that was desolate has become like the garden of Eden; and the wasted, desolate, and ruined cities are now fortified and inhabited.’ Then the nations which are left all around you shall know that I, the Lord, have rebuilt the ruined places and planted what was desolate. I, the Lord, have spoken it, and I will do it.” Ezekiel 36:35-36
“You are not good enough.” “No one will ever love you.” “You’re ugly.” “You’re weak.” “You should know better.” “If ____ ever found out what I did.” “You…You…You.” When I was a child I used to hear those words, not because of anything my parents said to me, but because of what the enemy said to me. Whenever something happened those words would be whispered into my spirit as if they were truth. As I got older, the enemy no longer needed to whisper them to me. I said them to myself. And the closer I have become to God, the more insidious those words have become, sneaking up on me when I least expect. You may know what I am talking about. You may have heard the same things. The enemy seeks to kill, steal, and destroy everything about you…even your mind…and the greatest battle is not out, but within. The battle for your mind is the gateway to the battle for your spirit I have learned, as I was once a broken person in the midst of such a battle. Broken, but not damaged. That is what God sees when He looks at me…at each of us…a broken person. A person without faith would see damage as something or someone beyond repair, but a person of faith knows that something or someone broken can be repaired, healed, and redeemed. Yet, redemption and healing don’t come because you wish it so nor is it is a solitary act to be played out, instead it is a battle that can only be won by the strength of the Lord.
In the 36th chapter of Ezekiel, God is speaking to a nation of broken people that have defamed Him and themselves. He is speaking to a nation that has been devastated, laid to waste, desolate and ravaged by others and their own personal choices. They are a nation full of people that felt as if they were cast off and unworthy of anything, let alone love, grace, mercy or redemption. God was speaking to a people very much like you and I. People that know what it feels like to think you are unworthy or to wonder how anyone, let alone God, could love you or even respect you if they knew the true you. Just as I once felt, you too may feel defeated or feel as if you are a walking wasteland. But God would have each of us to know that we are redeemed and that He has rebuilt us inside out.
In Ezekiel 36:35-36, God states in spite of everything, they are not so damaged that they cannot be restored. Yes, they have been disobedient. Yes, their cities have been devastated and their lives in ruins. Yes, other nations and the enemy has mocked them, taking pleasure in their demise. In spite of all of that, God testified that when He cleanses them, He would rebuild the cities and make the desolate land like the Garden of Eden. If God did that for the cities of Israel, what more will He do for our mind, our heart, and our spirit? Where do you need rebuilding? Where do you need cleansing?
If you are a follower of Christ, you are neither a wasteland nor a ruined vessel; you are neither less than or beyond the healing of God; instead you are more valuable than the most precious stones. So valuable, that you were bought and cleansed with the highest price…His Blood. God can restore even the most barren place if you allow Him.
The next time the enemy tries to gain a foothold in your thoughts or your own inner voice speaks that you are not worthy or are damaged, remember that Christ died for you, paid for you, because of the greatest love you will ever know, the Father’s love. And in that love you are redeemed and restored.